Just Trying
In a class of as little as 30
To a class of more than 600
I sat in front, because I wanted an access to run
If I needed to, I wanted a clear space
There were moments I knew the answers
But still said nothing
I didn’t speak, and you noticed
Nothing came of it
I carefully, yet forcefully trekked building to building
Stone faced, and blaring earbuds
I was tuning out my surroundings
Trying to not be seen
Not wanting to look up
Not wanting to say
A voice not wanted, and I knew it
Never truly understanding what to say
I was silent
Scared of what would happen if I tried
I didn’t, and you noticed
Timid, but bashfully trying to overcompensate
Just trying
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Keep fighting
Every day I run
I run to see how far I can go
How much I can endure
How long it’ll take me to stop and catch my breath
Ending a race that never had a start date
A continuation that will never die
I run to run out of air
To fill my lungs to capacity
Shatter my chest from the frigid wind that pushes towards me
I run
I can’t stop
If I do I won’t restart
I won’t try again
I need to shove my thoughts down
Under my doubts of being
I run from doubt
I run towards my own second guessing
I can’t stop running
If I do I wont see the end
I’ll run forever hoping for a lighter path
A safer ending
But I can’t stop
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